At the end of each day, what I really want to say is “Look, God! Look at my kids and what I did today! Do you see me? Is what I am doing working? Or is it all in vain?”

Because deep down I want the sacrifices, the tears, the not-social-media-worthy mundane, repetitive, long, hard days to mean something, anything. I’m looking to the results to show my worth and my children’s worth, and when there is nothing to show, I fall prey to discouragement, defeat, and rejection.

Praise the Father that He does not parent like me…

Friend, where is “death” in your own life? Or what is on the brink of dying? It doesn’t have to be the end. This could be the way to bring life. God’s purpose is to never leave you there. He is so good and loving and gracious that He wants to use any and all death in our lives to bring us abundant life. If God is merciful to bring life from dying creation, how much more is He with our own souls?

Because of my love of words, the emotions that are voiced through music, and the sincere and intimate lyrics, songs speak to my heart.

Throughout my book, Living Hope, I share QR codes to listen to songs that were meaningful to me as I grieved Seth and Roi. Now, I’m sharing the playlist of those songs and additional songs that did not make it into the book!

This is my mission for anyone who would read this next book…that she would become more sensitive and compassionate to a woman in her life who has lost a baby.

I would love for this book to be from the many hearts of women who have lost babies. If that is YOU, and you have lost a baby (miscarriage, stillborn, and/or infant), I would be grateful if you filled out the following form…

God is using the hardships, the chaos, and the crying to produce the fruit of the Spirit in all of us as a family. This is the way that the gospel becomes not only words recited from memory, but life-changing power and strength transforming us to be more like Jesus.

Listen to Part 2 of how I found healing after losing my sons, Seth and Roi.

While everything in this world vanishes, the Lord's faithfulness is the hope we have in this life and the life to come. 

Listen to my story of being broken after losing my sons, Seth and Roi.